Sometimes we get what we want, and we don’t even realize it. Sometimes we get what we want without doing anything at all. It makes me wonder- how hard do you have to think about something to force a change? Can you truly change the way things are simply by wishing hard enough- maybe even wishing without realizing you are. I guess I just wonder if God really does bless us with answered prayers more than we even realize. Everything always works out, in the end.

Vauge and pointless paragraph? I suppose I’ll pad the sides with a little actual content for good measure. We move in two days and the house is only about 50% packed. I am not worried yet though it is possible that I should be! I’m looking so forward to settle myself into a new place that I plan on residing in for several years- until I am ready to buy a home of some sort. Hopefully this year will also bring a car, I know I gave it up once and it was okay..but I just want to have one. It makes me feel safe and it makes me feel confident and secure. Hopefully by November I’ll be ready.

Yesterday I witnessed a bank robbery and its subsequent police chase and arrest. It scared me a little, but mostly it just made me sad. I thought about how desperate that man must be, knowing full well he was going to get caught, to go into the bank and rob it. I said a prayer for him. I mean, maybe he was a scumbag, or a drug addict, or selfish and cruel- but maybe he was a guy caught so tight in a life that spun out of control that he had to do it because there was no other option. Yes, I know, there is always another option- but I know what it is like to feel trapped and desperate and I wanted, at that moment, more than being scared, to pray that he is blessed and healed. Maybe it makes me a sucker, but I think I am okay with it.

I am leaving you with this comic that made me laugh so hard I had to lay down to keep from hyperventilating. I think it might only be funny to a select group of “potty trainers”, but I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It even LOOKS like Lavan.

Ever Virgin.

5 AM
Friday morning
Thursday night
Far from sleep
I’m still up and driving
Can’t go home obviously
So I’ll just change direction
‘Cause they’ll soon know where I live
And I wanna live
Got a full tank and some chips
It was me and a gun and a man on my back
And I sang ‘Holy Holy’ as he buttoned down his pants
You can laugh
It’s kinda funny
The things you think at times like these
Like I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this
Yes, I wore a slinky red thing
Does that mean I should spread
For you
Your friends
Your father
Mr. Ed
It’s me and a gun and a man on my back
But I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this
I know what this means
Me and Jesus a few years back
Used to hang
And he said “it’s your choice, babe
Just remember
I don’t think you’ll be back
In 3 days time
So you choose well”
Tell me what’s right
Is it my right
To be on my stomach
Of Fred’s Seville
It’s me and a gun and a man on my back
But I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this
And do you know Carolina
Where the biscuits are soft and sweet
These things that go through your head
When there’s a man on your back
And you’re pushed flat on your stomach
It’s not a classic Cadillac
It’s me and a gun and a man on my back
And I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this
I haven’t seen Barbados
So I must get out of this

Ever Virgin. (because no one can take that away from you.)

I’m happy that Jacob is home.  He brought me back the prettiest opal pendant from Hawaii- I absolutely love it!  We’re thinking we might take our vacation to Hawaii instead of London this March- we’re real jet-setters.  He loved his birthday present and tomorrow we’re getting baby kitty from next door- so soon we’ll have three special friends milling around! Lavan was so excited to see Jacob and she’s very content that everyone that belongs in her family is back home.  She is currently passed out in bed beside me.

I’m exhausted already and it’s only Monday. This extra weekend of bare is killing me!  I am glad it’s happening though- I am really proud of all the hard work everyone has put in.  My favorite reviews are from broadwayworld.com, even though we got great reviews in a ton of publications.  We’re talking like a dozen reviews!  Also, the DASH awards were announced and F.U.D.G.E. picked up 6 nominations!   Kacee, Trevor, and SouixSanna got performance nominations, the vocal ensemble of I Love You Because got nominated, Props for Batboy got nominated and Joey got best director nomination for I Love You Because.  I’m very proud.  It has been a season filled to the brim with hard work.

I am looking forward to moving and settling in our new place for a few good reasons, but mostly because I am buying myself a new bed and bedroom set, a real one, for grown ups.  We’re going to have a baby grand piano so my prodigy can work on his music, and a real work table so I can scrapbook again.  I know I have to work slowly to find the things I desire, but sometimes I just want it all to happen right away POOF!!

I can’t seem to get enough sleep lately- perhaps because I was up almost every night Jacob was away- but its been going on for longer than that- my body is looking to recharge itself from fear and stress, and I just cannot seem to put it in a place long enough to keep it secure!