cultural attache
spiritual bouquet
radioactive decay
Texas independence day
gay.

capital of Zaire
astronomical year
automotive engineer
military volunteer
queer.

holy week
widow’s peak
medieval Greek
powder technique
freak.

tea bag
main drag
medium pile shag
Confederate flag
fag.

family name
insurance claim
exhibition game
inertial reference frame
we are all the same.

we are all the same.

Ever Virgin.

I know it might sound funny but with so much running around in my head, its hard to pick out any one thought and allow it to spin itself into writing for human consumption.  I had a snow day today, and kept busy in my own, hobbling way, but doing my roommate’s laundry and cleaning the hall closet and the kitchen and generally trying to make my house a wonderful, comfortable and happy place to live.

There was a time, a few months back, that I was terrified that Jacob was going to move out of the house- following a progression that I am used to, I assumed not long after his dating Steven began, he’d want to move in with him- I am following, of course, the example of my former roommate.  I am sure that this fear was only partially a fear of his moving and more a fear of his symbolic moving away from being my friend (another progression I’ve become all too familiar with over the past year or so) but as the time goes on, we do more and more to make the house look nice- and I just don’t want to move anywhere else for a long time.  So I am going to stay here.  I will stay here as long as I can, and hopefully it will be with the roommate I love and adore, but if he should want to leave me, I will stay anyway.  Once I let this sink into my heart, my time has gotten easier.  I think I just have to accept that no matter how much I want to feel safe and secure, sometimes there are things beyond our control, and I have to be okay with that.

So I am continuing to improve the abode while at the same time trying to rest my foot, and trying to prepare for the Opera and for various exciting F.U.D.G.E. events.  I am excited about F.U.D.G.E.’s upcoming cabaret, The Distance You Have Come: The Music of Scott Alan.  I think it is such a great opportunity to feature F.U.D.G.E. and raise money for a worthy cause.  And it will be fun to hang out at the Encore, especially because I am manning the table for this awesome postcard writing initiative to repeal the defense of marriage act!  The awareness video they made is awesome!

Big goals for the month of March are buying a dresser and a mattress with my income tax refund check.  Also I am looking forward to seeing Dirty Dancing this Friday!  Woot!

Ever Virgin